thoughts

2009-11-04T19:40:00.000-08:00

Come back

Don't know what to do
Trying not to face it to

Shining my life was a wish
Swimming freely as a fish

Suddenly....ran away
Like passing in a darkway

Lost, dont know where
Seeing life as a flare

Asking, wondering why...?
Like falling from so high

passion, feelings...all are hurt
As usual, I've never learnt

Won't you come back to me
Don't be afraid, I'm not a bee

The one who loved you more
The one who who want you more & more

2007-02-28T04:44:00.000-08:00

It's not ma life i think it's yours
That's why i'm closing the doors

Always thought it was you
But it's not true

Wherever i go i feel ur soul
But i can't find it''no more''

Don't know what 2 do
Have done lots 2 u

Just dreaming for a lovely day
Dreaming for your lovely stay

You don't feel what i mean
Coz you were always mean

Destroying every single thing
Coz you don't feel anything

Don't want 2 say goodbye
Will have another try

Don't you know why?
Coz you always keep me high

Leave everything behind
Don't be blind

It's a couple of days we live
So don't ask & try 2 give

2007-02-09T10:31:00.000-08:00

I'm such a lucky person...to have u for a friend..there's a certain nearness and warmth when u walk in..U have a gift within u ..it's a talent that u posses,for making other people feel special and so blessed..The fun we have is spirited..full of life n energy..The time we spend together,will be itched in memory..when i'm down and sad u were always there..your heart is pure sweet..U're so kind,nice,loving and thoughtful without you i'd be lost..I can't imagine ma life without u..i think we were created for each other..it's really a gift from god 2 have a friend like u that shares me in everything in ma life..and walks with me however long ma life's path is..I hope when the years soon come that our friendship will shine as the sun....to ma lil angel ENGY

2007-02-06T01:30:00.000-08:00

I could hardly believe it...
When I heard the news today..
I had to come and get it straight from you...
They said you were leavin....
'Someone swept you heart awayFrom the look upon your face ....I see it's true...So tell me all about it, tell me 'bout the plans you're makin'....Then tell me one thing more before I go....Tell me why do you love doing that 2 me although i've never done anything back as u do ....I didn't come here for cryin...Didn't come here to breakdown...It's just a dream of mine is coming to an end...An how can I blame you...When I built my world around alone...And I don't wanna know the price I'm gonna pay for dreaming.....coz i always pay 4 nothing...When even now it's more than I can take.......And I don't wanna face the price I'm gonna pay for dreaming......Now that your dream has come true....dont 4 get what u always do ...coz i 'll never do....don't take me 4 others mistakes...but forgive their mistakes coz if u dont that will keep power 4m u...thx 4 nothing.....

2006-12-04T07:07:00.000-08:00

sometimes life get miserable..u even dont know how 2 describe ur internal feelings..but only u feel that u r carrying burdens on ur shoulder
and when u stay a while and ask ur self whats going wrong.. u discover that u even dont know urself needs..just feel that there r lots of things missing..as people's support 2 u or even a nice word that courages u 2 push on forwards especially if its from a special person that u admire...
and when u become couraged u won't be pushed rapidly as that thing goes gardually first untill u reach the peak...then plateau appears for a while and then again gradually u become down..unless u become couraged again..
its not good 2 depend on others..the stongest ...the indepenent one..i am saying these words..coz that what i am always through..although i can depend on ma self..but always inneed 2 hear nice words from special one near 2 me ...''plz try 2 understand ma word i always keep things behind u '';)

2006-10-07T06:12:00.000-07:00

i feel that i lost my way
dont know where 2 go or stay
I know im number 1
u can hide but u cant run
u know im the best
thats why u runaway from ma test
u always scream u always cry
ur biggest hope is that u'll soon die
i can be ur death angel hunnii
can kill u like a warrior kills a bunny
when death beomes a blessing im always there
killing u with a sword & ur bloods flies in the air
blood runs in ur viens and it can be on the floor
if u wish 2 die tht way just open ur door

2006-08-08T08:53:00.000-07:00

i dont know from where 2 strart and begin..
but i want 2 say ..that i am missing u so much
day from day..i dont know why i'm persisting on u..
maybe its because..that u were the only one that understood
me correctly and completly..u enclose me tightly when i'm with u..
when i'm with u ..i 4get every single thing around us..i even 4get maself..
although i don't lo0ok 2 ur eyes directly..i wish 2 c u and feel u more deeply..
ur eyes send out beams that makes me firm..i dont need more than that..just u
shining my whole life..u really make it different..that i wish we wont be apart whatever happens...u wipe away all of my tears...u fight away all of my fears...and when u breath
i feel as if i'm breathing and still alive..hope that god protects u from any harm..and makes my day b4 urz..really i am writing these words form the deepest part of ma heart..may god bless u

2006-08-07T13:06:00.000-07:00

i am so happy ..i cant describe how glad
i am..i am travellin on saturday with my best friend
bato0ot to marina..after along way 4 persuadin
my parents ..i cant believe that my dad agreed
and wants me 2 go with her as if there were no problems
4 that....thanks god

2006-08-07T07:31:00.001-07:00

i think noone cares about how i am ..
how my life is runin..and if i gave the
one i need the chance to intervene in
my life..i retreat back..because i discover
that noone deserve that place in my life
maybe i am dejected somehow these days
i feel alone.no support at all.....
thats why i am writin these words but i hope
i may change my words with better ones coz
really i am fed up from everything is happenin

2006-08-05T18:21:00.000-07:00

ma dream

yesterday I was sittin on ma restful sofa ,
stretched ma legs and dropped ma head on
ma soft pillow with ma lemonade juice
I started to think about ma life and how
it's goin on......
of course u can imagine how comfort i was
with the classic music playin around me as
if i was thrown to another world..a peace one.
on hearin the piano and the violin playin the
lovely symphony of zamfir..now i became
completely immersed in my fancy dream.....
i was sittin in da garden smellin da nectar of da
fascinatin flowers...then my charming man came
masked my eyes with his gentle hands

gave me his romantic kiss..cuddled me.....
hold me and lift all the burdens off my shoulders...
then he put his soft hands around my waist..
on that ofcourse i couldnt feel my self..
i completely felt as if i m livin on da moon
where there's noone with us just me and him..
we started our dance that we used to..
steppin forwards and backwards..
without thinkin where would we put our leg..
as if both of us were flyin.....
it was sunset,lovely music,romantic atmosphere
with ma paramour between ma hands....
i think i don need more than that in my life...but suddenly
i heard my sister yellin..the juice was about to spill
then i realized that it was only adream...
i was zapped back to reality..
and hoped if only ma dream may come true one day..
without nullifying it with a lemonade juice.........

2006-08-02T07:13:00.000-07:00

smile is the way for joy
smile is the way to enjoy

enjoy ur life in anyway
enjoy ur life that's the day

day for luv or for joy
day for hatred or for toy

toy as u maybe in his heart
but it's not in his fault

smile is the way for joy
smile is the way to enjoy

comes...goes u don't know
comes...goes he will show

show what? u don't know
show luv,romance he will show

but he has 2 know u r not a toy
depending on what he will show

dreaming for a lovely day
dreaming for a lovely stay

smile is the way for joy
smile is the way to enjoy

imagine flying in the sky
imagine reaching a lovely star

remember how u spent ur childhood
playin wid toys,sand and wid wood

runin,playin hide and seek
then u remember back u r weak

years pass,life fades
so take care from god's says

smile is the way for joy
smile is the way to enjoy

2006-08-01T06:38:00.000-07:00

something u can't describe
something is always in ur mind
u wonder ,u ask ,u u u ....
but at the end discover it wasn't u

emotions feelings that can't be tell
emotions feelings that can't be spell
u wonder if u were deceived
u answer ,u were the received

receive normal feelings and love
so u try to show tough
sorrow,joy u don't know
but soon god will show

were young,but thats the step
step of luv,that we accept
maybe don't show anything
but only predict eveything

people say it was u
tryin not 2 believe them 2
comes and ask u about ur life
u answer: i am still alive

life is not what u think
life is a thing that may sink
luv..is the question 2 u
nothing..is the answer from u

solutions that can't be found
emotions r still flyin around
nothing 2 say,nothing 2 do
but u must find someone new

2006-07-30T14:35:00.000-07:00

engy
she the only one who understood me...
she's the one i turn to when my spirit needs a lift
i think she's a gift and grace from god 2 me
she makes the world i live in a better and happier place
she accepts me as i am in any way (fhmani)
she loves me 4 who i am
makes difference in my life never judges,offer support,
quiets my fear, raises my spirit never hurts and ofcourse honest
values me,walks beside me in happiness and misery
yells when i dont listen and zaps me back 2 reality
may we always be good buddies and our friendship last 4ever
i luv u bato0t

2006-07-28T19:04:00.000-07:00

i was talking with mahamehoo...
she has a small problem..
i wish everything is gonna be allright with her ..
and hope everyone leaves her alone..
ofcourse she know how 2 manage everything...
god bless u mahy.....your rose

2006-07-28T18:11:00.000-07:00

i can't express how i am so happy ,delighted and glad....
to see my mom back in her castle........
my mom is back home after 2 months....
suffering from severe pain....
may god bless her and keep her safe for us....